Just collecting some quotes and thoughts from this week.
From The Seven Storey Mountain by Thomas Merton:
Whoever you are, the land to which God has brought you is not like the land of Egypt from which you came out. You can no longer live here as you lived there. Your old life and your former ways are crucified now, and you must not seek to live any more for your own gratification, but give up your own judgement into the hands of a wise director, and sacrifice your pleasures and comforts for the love of God and give the money you no longer spend on those things, to the poor.Above all, eat your daily Bread without which you cannot live, and come to know Christ Whose Life feeds you in the Host, and He will give you a taste of joys and delights that transcend anything you have ever experienced before, and which will make the transition easy.
2 Then he brought me out by way of the north gate and led me around on the outside to the outer gate that faces toward the east; and behold, the water was trickling out on the south side. 3 Going on eastward with a measuring line in his hand, the man measured a thousand cubits, and then led me through the water, and it was ankle-deep. 4 Again he measured a thousand, and led me through the water, and it was knee-deep. Again he measured a thousand, and led me through the water, and it was waist-deep. 5 Again he measured a thousand, and it was a river that I could not pass through, for the water had risen. It was deep enough to swim in, a river that could not be passed through.
The sermon includes this:
That was their abominable condition, but what about you? Are you satisfied with dipping your toe into the river of God’s glory and pretending you’ve sold out to Jesus? Is knee-deep water enough for you to play in and call yourself committed to the gospel? Do you believe you’re righteous because the water laps around your waist? … Are any of you willing to cast yourself into the river of God where only Jesus can hold you up? Who will go into deeper water?
All of this leads me to hum the Steven Curtis Chapman song, Dive
The long awaited rains
Have fallen hard upon the thirsty ground
And carved their way to where
The wild and rushing river can be found
And like the rains
I have been carried here to where the river flows yeah
My heart is racing and my knees are weak
As I walk to the edge
I know there is no turning back
Once my feet have left the ledge
And in the rush I hear a voice
That’s telling me it’s time to take the leap of faith
So here I go
I’m diving in I’m going deep in over my head I want to be
Caught in the rush lost in the flow in over my head I want to go
The river’s deep the river’s wide the river’s water is alive
So sink or swim I’m diving in
I’m still listening to the audiobook Not For Sale by David Batstone. I can only take 15 minutes a day because I am overwhelmed by the depravity and nastiness of people in the world and the tragedy of the victims – physical, psychological, short-term, and long-term.
I’m going to Madison tomorrow to spend the day with Judy. We’ll probably visit the gravesite and maybe go through a few things in the house and just talk. I miss him.